HAVE A GOOD EASTER! I get jellybeans :D
I'm a vegetarian and jellybeans are partly made of ground up pigs feet..
but..I don't know. I may not eat them.

ANYWAYS.
Quotes + Pictures.

regret fills the eyes of the broken, each lie
streaming down her rosey red cheeks.scars
re-opening at the touch of a razorblade...
warm alcohol stinging the back of her throat
washed down  the  few  pills  to  forget  her
worries.its just a little too late for this drama
queen. pearls tied around her neck making
the  perfect  noose. noone  suspected  she
would be like this. not a wrinkle in her
clothes, hair perfect and she was complete
what they couldnt see was her torn heart ,
oozing from her wrists.happily ever after
came too soon for this princess.a smile
across her face as she collapsed on her
death bed



I'm the type of girl that will put my head on your shoulder
and tell you it's because I'm tired
But I'm really doing it to be closer to you



I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, that myth is more potent than history. I believe that dreams are more powerful than acts, that hope always triumphs over experience, that laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death.



The first thing we did in kindergarden was get shown a picture of an apple and two oranges,
Then pick out which ones didn't belong.
The first thing we were taught was that being different is wrong...



They hide behind the "security" of books or computers or music, because they would rather feel life than have to live it.
They would prefer to hide from people, because people hurt, leave, betray, let down, and intimidate.
They prefer silence over noise, awkwardness over perfection, and honesty over lies



You say you are my friend,
That you trust me and you'll always be there for me,
And that nothing I could do would ever change your perception of me.
Well, I'll just tell you this--
You're not the first one to tell me that,
And that other person...they're no longer here.



I'm telling you this because you didn't ask.
I've got it all here, growing like a tumor in my throat.
I'm telling you because if i don't i will choke on it.
Everybody knows what happened...but nobody asks.



This is me alright...I just need to break.
And the sad part is I just cant.
I always try to act strong for everyone around me, but inside i am just dying to break down.
I always feel like i just need to scream but of course I cant.
People depend on me to be the strong one, to help them through their problems, so what would they do if i broke down?
How would they handle it?
They wouldnt...thats just the problem.
If i broke down, if i just quit...everyone around me would too.
Its like i am the wall holding everyone up, and god i hate it...



I'm not saying I have nothing.
I'm not saying i'm gone completely.
It's just sometimes it's all a bit too hard to handle, sometimes I feel like it's too much.
I'm not going to do anything stupid because i know it will get better; it has to, right?
Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years.
But for now, just for now...it hurts.



Be optimistic. All the people you hate now, are eventually going to die.



Life is like a box of chocolates.
It's a cheap thoughtless perfunctory gift that nobody ever asks for.
Unreturnable because all you ever get back is another box of chocolates,
So you're stuck with unidentifiable whipped mint crap that you mindlessly wolf down when there's nothing left to eat.
Sure, once in a while there's a peanut butter cup or an English toffee, but they're gone too fast and the taste is fleeting.
So you end up with nothing but broken bits with hardened jelly and teeth shattering nuts.
If you're desperate enough to eat that, all you have left is an empty box filled with useless brown paper wrappings



Dont tell me you have been depressed.
You have no idea.
No fucking idea.
How dare you tell me youve been depressed.
Look at you, smiling and laughing and joking.
You shrug when I tell you I feel bad.
There is no way you would shrug if you had been depressed.
When I say I have had a bad day, that doesnt mean I failed a test, or lost my purse.
It means depression had such a great hold on me that I could not function throughout the day.
It means so many things, so many of which are very difficult to explain.
There is no way to verbalize the pain a depressed person feels.
Its quite simply not possible.
Depression is crying myself to sleep night after night,
Faking being fine all day but the moment I close my door behind me that fascade crashes and falls around me.
Its needing someone to hear my cries for help but feeling as if I am screaming into an empty abyss.



I quit.
I give up.
Nothing's good enough for anybody else, it seems...
When I'm all alone it's the best way to be.
When I'm by myself nobody else can say goodbye.
Everything is temporary anyway.



Sometimes it hurts more to hope
And it hurts more to care but…
Promise me you won’t stop caring.

Life’s too short
to wake up in the morning with regrets.
So love the people who treat you right,
 and forget about the ones who don't.
Believe that everything happens for a reason,
and if you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, then let it.
Nobody said it'd be easy,
they just promised that it would be worth it.



We deny we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth... right in front of our faces.



Here’s the truth about the truth…
it hurts, so we lie.



Just because she isn’t tied to train tracks
doesn’t mean she should be ignored.



I'm here, but you don't see me.
I'm crying, but you don't hear me.
I talk, but you don't listen.
My heart breaks, but you just don't know.



the lonely girl cries herself to sleep thinking he'll never love her the way she loves him, but what she didn't know was everything he said to her, he was lying to her and himself for the fear that he might actually be in love with this lonely girl.



A lonely girl sits in her room.
The thoughts and memories are still in her head.
The very last words he said to her were "I think we're better off friends" while she sat there and though "I think I'm better off dead."



He's the kind of guy that can always manage to make me smile
& i love how he calls me without me asking him to .
i love how he randomly tells me he loves me and when he makes fun of me its just to make me laugh. i love when we sit on the phone late at night for hours talking about pretty much anything.
yah, i guess you can pretty much say that i love him a lot



Force a smile.
Blink away the tears.
I’m supposed to be strong,
supposed to have no fears
but I’m finding it so hard not to frown.
I’m such a strong person.
Why am I breaking down?



How that kid made her smile from across the country is beyond me.




You keep saying, "Yeah, I'm over him,"
but it seems like you're trying to convince
yourself of something,
rather than trying to tell me something.



I wanted to be that special girl
who you would kiss in the rain
&& call her for no reason
say the randomest things to
and hold her at night
is that too much to ask?



"I bet you didn't know that I am terrified of
the dark and every time I think of you, I smile.
I bet you don't know that I hate thunderstorms,
but love dancing in the rain.. or how much
I laugh with my friends & how much I truly enjoy
being happy.I bet you (don't) know how many tears
I've cried just for you, or how much I doubt
myself every day. I bet you don't know how ticklish
I am or how I c a n ' t make decisions.& how it
drives me crazy when you look into my eyes.
I bet you didn't know that I would do anything
to be with you. But mostly, I bet you didn't
know how much I love you.."
-Grey's Anatomy

She sits on her porch alone
with her headphones on,
listening to depressing music.
Mascara r uns down her face as she
looks up at the stars & wishes upon
every one of them that someday
he would love her as much as she loved him.



What comes first, the music or the misery?  People worry about kids playing with guns, or watching violent videos, that some sort of culture of violence will take them over.  Nobody worries about kids listening to thousands, literally thousands of songs about heartbreak, rejection, pain, misery, and loss.  Did I listen to pop music because I was miserable?  Or was I miserable because I listened to pop music?



Please don't act like you care,
I know you don't,
You've watched me destroy myself for too long now,
If you really cared,
You would have tried to stop it by now.



I just want someone to show me that I'm beautiful.
I've forgotten what love is; or maybe I never knew



So tell me -
When was the last time you walked down the street
Completley happy with the world?



I just have one favor to ask you:
Remember Me



Sometimes when two people meet..
you know that undeniably there can
be an instant chemistry


[It made me laugh]

For a complicated girl, she's
not that hard to figure out.
[Somebody actually said that about me to my friend.]



knowing is better than wondering,
waking is better than sleeping,
and even the biggest failure,
beats the hell out of never trying



dont flatter yourself sweetie
the only fan you've got is the one on the ceiling



Have you have had that empty feeling inside
of you like no one cares or loves you back ;;
as if you cried ; no one would be there to
wipe away all of your tears?



every time i laugh i look to see
if he's watching cause i wonder
if he's fallen for my smile as hard
as i've fallen for his



my best friends are great. they never
have to guess when im sad or when im
not, because its just a feeling that they
know. <3



She's wishing that someone could notice
the insecurities behind her smile
& the tears behind her eyes.



you deserve to be with somebody who
makes you happy. somebody who doesn't
complicate your life. somebody who
wont hurt you. he's the better guy.

You can love someone with all your heart,
for all the right reasons, & in a moment
they can choose to walk away,
love them anyway.



She'd do anything to get rid of her awful scars
and her painful memories. But she won't forget
the pain that put them there.



you see people on the street corner begging for food &
you think you're so superior because you have more
money, but honey, let me tell you, these people have more
soul than you ever will & in the end that's going to matter more.



here's to every single girl that's ever cried,
here's to every girl that's been alone,
here's to every single girl that has been so fed up with being rejected,
that she finally quit.



he asks herself
"Is this really who you want to be,
The freak with the razors hidden in her room
and scars on her arms that she has to hide daily?"
and she answers herself
"I'll do whatever the hell I can to get rid of that person.
She's not me anymore, and she will never be again."



What I’m standing on is sinking in and I don’t have a clue how to get out of it.
But when I look at you there is hope its like you see the sadness in my eyes you read the blue between my eyes.
You could be the one to hold me when I wanna cry.



dressed up with a fashion sense,
 approach you and spit clever pick up lines.
my name is whatever you prefer.
you said, "my friends call me insecure."



I don't know why, but there's just something about you that keeps making me turn back. Whenever I try forgetting, it doesn't work. When I sleep you're there, when I wake up you're there and when I'm lonely, you're always there. When I'm smiling, it's because of you. You're never off my mind & you'll never be.



So maybe I was wrong in thinking we were meant to be & that we were made for each other. Maybe we were never supposed to fall in love the way we did. Hell, we probably weren't even supposed to meet when we did, or maybe we shouldn't have met at all. But I know this much, if we aren't meant to be I don't know why I can't seem to come to terms of saying goodbye to you. And if we weren't supposed to fall in love then it was the most beautiful mistake I've ever made. And if I hadn't have met you, I probably wouldn't be the person I am today.



She doesn't know what she wants anymore.
All she knows is who she wants.
And that's the boy who doesn't want her back.



I thought this was different
and we were on the same page.
That we could make it, despite the pressure.
No one thought we could do it.
I thought they were wrong.
Obviously, you were listening to a different song.



I believe in karma;
What you give is what you get returned.
I believe you can’t appreciate real love
until you’ve been burned.
I believe the grass is greener on the other side.
I believe you don’t know what you’ve got
until you say goodbye.



Before you judge me, take a good look at you,
don’t you have anything better to do?
Seems to me you’re a little slow to understand,
ignorance and jealousy go hand in hand.



That night we talked.
We talked about life,
about our times together.
Maybe we aren't the same two kids
we once were, but some things never change.
Some things last, and even though I didn't
know what was going to happen to us
or where we were going,
I just knew I couldn't let you out of my life.

 

I guess everyone has someone
who challenges them and makes them
shoot for something just beyond their
reach.  You’re that person.



I’m mad at myself, not you.
I’m mad for always being nice,
always apologizing for things I didn’t do,
for getting attached,
for making you a huge part of my life,
wasting time on you, depending on you,
thinking about you, wishing for you,
dreaming of you, changing for you,
and most of all, for not hating you
when I knew I should.